Again sorry for the lateness of this chapter but my children brought in yet another cold bug and I've been ill all week again as well as uber busy leaving no time or energy to get my story out.
The Day of my wedding came around so fast, I was so excited. In the weeks up until the day I had felt so ill and exhausted but I didn't want to worry Moe so I just keep it hidden "its just nerves and working to much, I'll be fine when the weddings over" I told myself, to keep myself going. We picked a small church in Barnacle Bay to get Married and invited only a few people. It was so sad that Moe's dad wasn't able to come but he wasn't well enough to leave the house. Moe set up camera's all over the place so he could edit it and show him everything about the day.
I chosen a simple yet pretty wedding dress with blue lace lining the top and the back of the dress. As soon as I saw it in the shop I knew it was perfect. I borrowed a beautiful sapphire necklace of Mary Soto's to complete my outfit, it was her mothers and as we had become close friends she offered to lend it to me. I was so choked up by her kindness. So I had my something old, something new, something borrowed and something blue. The only thing that made me sad was I wouldn't have my father to give me away on my wedding day but that morning I visited his grave just to tell him about the church and my dress and I felt a little better.
As I entered the church all my nerves melted away, I was the happiest woman alive and stood right there at the alter was the most amazing man in the world and he was going to be my husband. As soon as the music started he looked up and his jaw dropped, I had to laugh at that point but I managed to keep it quiet. As I reached him he whispered in my ear "Wow". As we stood there listening to the minister we just looked at each other like there was no one else there.
"I, Faye , take you, Moe, to be my beloved husband, to have and to hold you, to honour you, to treasure you, to be at your side in sorrow and in joy, in the good times, and in the bad, and to love and cherish you always. I promise you this from my heart, for all the days of my life." No words I had ever said in my life meant more than these word right now. "I, Moe , take you, Faye, to be my beloved wife, to have and to hold you, to honor you, to treasure you, to be at your side in sorrow and in joy, in the good times, and in the bad, and to love and cherish you always. I promise you this from my heart, for all the days of my life." "Now you may kiss the bride" announced the minister.
I was now Mrs Faye Pesce. Who would have guessed this little street urchin would become married to a Doctor and training as one as well. I would never forget how hard it was to live on a bench but I wouldn't change it either. Sounds like an odd thing to say but I believe people are tested in life and some more than other, as the saying goes what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger. Only you can change your life no one is going to do it for you, yes you can ask for help along the way but ultimately you have to be the one to fight for what you want in life. And I fought hard.
The reception was wonderful, there wasn't many of us but we had a blast laughing and joking. I played a little bit of the guitar and sucked which made everyone laugh harder. I was so happy so why was I still feeling sick and exhausted. I tried to hide my yawns but Moe caught me. "We're not boring you are we" he laughed "no I'm fine it's just been a busy day" He looked concerned, I knew it right then I wasn't hiding it as well as I thought. "What wrong Faye, I know your not feeling well, you've been sleeping a lot lately and not eating much, your worrying me" "Moe don't be worried, it's just been the wedding and work, I'll be fine." Next thing I knew he went all doctor on me. I tried to protest but he was having none of it. As soon as I finished telling him exactly how I felt and all my symptoms he started grinning. "Why are you grinning at me?" " I can't be certain until I do a test but I think you pregnant." WHAT??? don't get me wrong it's not like I wasn't happy but I had no idea if I would be a good mum, what was a good mum?
He was right, the very next day I took a test and there it was two blue little lines pulsating like a beacon. OH god oh god oh god, a wave of happiness mixed with impending doom washed over me. I put my hand on my stomach and made a promise to my little one right there. "I might not always get things right but I promise I will always love you and let you know it everyday." The months of my pregnancy where filled with reading baby book and buying baby things. Moe would come home everyday from work and talk and listen to the baby. We decided we wanted to know the sex of the baby so we could decorate and because I had no patience at all. It was a boy! then the next couple of months were filled with arguing over the baby name. Everything he picked I hated and everything I picked he hated.
Also the house was filled with noise from building a second floor and re-decorating for the baby but the end results were so worth it. I finally had a proper living room and the bedrooms were moved upstairs. The baby's room was so cute with it's animal theme I couldn't wait to see him playing in here. Just as everything started to settle down and things became quiet my water's broke. I flew into a panic and Moe wasn't any better but somehow we made to the hospital without forgetting anything. As I gave birth I could here Bob Dylan playing in the back ground. We knew what to call him now.
Dylan Pesce was born 17th Oct 2010 weighing 7lb 1oz. I can not describe the feelings I had when I first looked into his eyes. The overwhelming love I had for him from the very second he was born was amazing. He was perfect and I couldn't imagine life without him even though he had only just arrived. As tears of happiness streamed down my face as he stared up at me. Moe put his arms around us and kissed us both. I left the next day, I could wait to get him home.
That night as I lay him down in his cot, I sat and told him a story of a girl who had nothing and now had the most precious thing in the world. Every night I watched him sleep and knew I would be a good mother as a mother is someone who loves and protects you but also makes sure your ready for the world when you grow up. I would make sure of that. I can't wait to see where life takes me next.
Chapter 7 Out Soon